Sunshine Daydream <3

Thu, 29 Oct 2009 13:00:00 GMT

Sharon Tate is like mad hot beautiful

I used to have a big poster of her in my living room, and nobody understood why. And I could never explain. But she's great.
And a good actress who never got the respect she deserved.

Now I want to watch Valley of the Dolls, but I can't find my dvd. :(

The knot is tied

Tue, 22 Sep 2009 13:35:36 GMT

I'm married!

On September 5th, my perfect fiance became my perfect husband, and despite all the minor mishaps, it was a great day.

Sun, 23 Aug 2009 02:38:51 GMT

I had super mad hot sex today.
(Like sweaty, headboard banging, loud moaning and noisemaking sex)

If this is any indication of what the honeymoon will be like, BRING IT ON!

Mini update

Tue, 28 Jul 2009 13:13:08 GMT

I got my Env3. Ed got glasses. He hates them.
I have a swollen gland behind my right ear. It hurts. :(

Sigh.

Fri, 26 Jun 2009 18:12:40 GMT

It looks like we might be switching our cell phones to Verizon. I'm torn between the LG Envy in maroon and the LG Chocolate in light blue. I'm sad though, as it means saying goodbye to my pretty, shiny purple Sony Ericson.

Wedding stuff is still coming together, albeit slowly. I'm worried about being able to afford everything, but since my wedding shower is coming up, I'm trying to remain focused on enjoying that, rather than freaking out about everything else.

Tonight is the first part of my hunters safety course, and I'm nervous about it. I'm really psyched about hunting this season, and I'm afraid I'll do horrible and not pass. It should be okay though.

So...
Pre-marital counseling was a breeze. We just talked about good communication habits and how we wanted the ceremony to go. We have one more session on Wed. night, and that's it.

We checked our bridal registry and it looks like we got some of the stuff we picked out.

Gremlin has been all neurotic-affectionate lately when he's not under the couch, ripping up carpet and tearing out foam. I love my bunny.
He follows me all over the house, and even tries to follow me into the bathroom, lol.

Not much else to say, except that the whole Michael Jackson, Farrah Fawcett, and Ed McMahon dying thing was mind blowing. I'm sad to hear about all of them, but on the subject of MJ, I have to admit, the MJ I grew up on, and knew and loved, was dead years ago.
Still, it is sad news.

Life and stuff...

Thu, 18 Jun 2009 15:06:51 GMT

So, the wedding is approaching. Like 2 months and 2 weeks away or something like that.
And I'm nervous, but only about how we're going to pay for all of it. I'm mostly excited about getting married though. We have had our wedding rings for a little while, and it's all I can do to keep myself from getting into the boxes and trying mine on.

I got some fringe bangs cut, so my updo will be a little more interesting than just pulled-up hair. I'm hoping that my veil will look okay with it.

I also got my boots. They're not exactly specifically wedding shoes, I just planned on having some cowboy boots to wear under my dress. So Ed and I went to the boot shop near his Grandpap's hunting camp (can't believe I actually recognized the area, being so directionally challenged) and I got some boots. They're fabulous.
Almost all female relatives are ready to shit over the fact that I'm just wearing my boots though, lol. I think everyone expected me to want to get heels or something.

Anyway, the money my grandfather left me looks like it should be coming in soon. Ed and I are beyond excited because $37,000 is a LOT of money for us, and would most definitely help us out, especially if it comes before the wedding, and then we would be worry free about paying for everything.
Either way, I still have plans for some of the money. I'm definitely buying that awesome .22 with a good scope. And a shotgun and good camoflage. I'm so excited for buck season, it's ridiculous.

It looks like my bachelorette party is going to be the week before the wedding. Destiny, my maid of honor, said she's thinking something along the lines of dinner and then getting tanked up. (My words, not hers, lol)
"Goin' out with my boots on..."

I just must not be into LJ as much as before. I still check my friends page and keep updated on everyone else's goings on, but as for posting my own, it never seems like I have enough time. There's too much wedding and domestic-wifely-duty stuff to be done.

Most of the time I just seems to be spending most of my free time with Ed. Last night we went out to dinner and then went to Target and finished up our registry list. It was a lot of fun, even with the storm knocked out the power for a minute and we were in the store in the dark. We found the original Gremlins movie for $4, and being that I have never seen it, and he's been dying to see it again, we bought it and started watching it last night. We didn't finish it, but we probably will tonight.
It's kind of funny watching a movie that our rabbit got his name from. When we first went to the store to pick out a bunny, I found ours in the back of the cage, and Ed was like, 'Oh he looks like Gremlin, from the movie.' He really meant Gizmo, but couldn't think of the name, and I just liked it, so now our bunny's name is Gremlin. And he is a little gremlin. He chews things all over the house, and worst of all, HE POOPS ALL OVER THE BATHROOM!
I hate that.
Lol.

Hostile bride-ing

Thu, 14 May 2009 03:50:40 GMT

I'm a bridal fuckup.
We're getting married in like 3 and 1/2 months, and there's all this detail shit I haven't done, and I can barely generate any interest. But then I think about how close everything is, and I freak the fuck out.
Fuck. It. All.

Aaaaaannnnnnnddddd....
My fiance is gone on a job. I want sex like woah. I am becoming shamelessly obsessive about sex with him. I don't know if it's the pill or what, but I was warned that it could possibly lower my sex drive, and it seems like the opposite.

I bought tequila for our house. We'll probably have a fire pit party and I'll get smashed and fuck the shit out of him.
As it should be.

Oh, and I'm semi-smoking again.

badness?...badass?

Raaaandom update

Thu, 07 May 2009 02:58:04 GMT

Wow... I never post anymore.

Anyway-
Wedding in 4 months

Still on the job hunt

Fiance is still amazingly fantastic, and I cannot wait to marry him

Almost finished cleaning out former residence of all belongings, and have found some cool long lost stuff

Getting contacts (yay!)

Fiance is sexy... Like we-have-sex-every-night-and-it's-super-hot sexy

We got our house bunny... He's a black and white dwarf rabbit, and his name is Gremlin

He eats rubber like a motherfucker

thatisall.
/end
fin.

haha

Wednesday afternoon fever

Wed, 18 Feb 2009 22:28:30 GMT

Sexual orientation?
Straight

In a relationship?
Engaged, yes

How many times a week do you have sex?
We have sex almost every day, sometimes a couple times, so maybe like an average of 8-9 times a week

What do you do in bed?
Umm, a lot of stuff, we're pretty open and like to mix it up, though I do end up on top a lot

Do you give or receive oral?
I do both, yes

Do you give or receive anal?
It's something we've discussed, though we have not yet tried it

Do you kiss after oral?
Yes, but my fiance thoughtfully wipes his mouth before I do

Do you masturbate in front of your partner?
Sometimes, yes

Lights on or off?
Either one

Been handcuffed during sex?
Not during intercourse, but I have been handcuffed while getting oral sex

Been drunk during sex?
Sure

Had unprotectected sex?
Yes

Had sex while menstruating?
Yes

Used a sex toy?
Yes

Had a sex toy used on you?
Yes

Dressed up for sex?
Well, sometimes I put on certain articles of clothing that I know my fiance finds attractive

Had sex with your clothes on?
Various articles of clothing, yes

Worn shoes during sex?
I've worn my fiance's boots while fucking him

Used wax/cream/ice/chocolate for sex?
Yes

Do any smells turn you on?
The smell of my fiance's cologne... although I think it's more the fact that he wears it than the actual smell does it for me

Heck yes.

Wed, 18 Feb 2009 15:42:01 GMT

I got a crossbow yesterday. At Cabela's.
Yesterday, I went on a delivery run with Ed. To Ohio.

And on the way back, he asked if I wanted to stop in at Cabela's and just look around. We weren't inteding on buying anything, but we found a crossbow that's light and easy for me to shoot. I absolutely love it.
So we get home, and I made lunch (leftovers, haha), and afterward, before we left for Kentucky, Ed asked if I wanted to practice shooting a little, so we went outside to have a little fun.

So, we're shooting and getting my bow sighted in, and shooting, and I'm doing good. I mean, I can definitely make a kill shot.
Then we find a grapefruit outside and Ed asked if I wanted to try shooting it. So, we mess with the bow a little more, and it's finally sighted in perfectly, and then I start shootig my three practice arrows. The first one went right in the center, which was good. The second landed right next to it. The third was a 'one-in-a-million' shot. I shafted the second arrow. Right down the shaft, no deviation. I remember watching MythBusters when they tried to do this and they couldn't.

It was so cute, Ed was so excited, he took pictures of the arrows, the grapefruit with them in it, me next to it with my bow, and then me holding the arrows and my bow.
He was beyond proud and called his brother and his mom to tell them and texted my mom the pics on his phone.

He says I'm going to be a killing machine.

But right now I'm sitting in our hotel room, hoping he's not working a 12 today, and wishing I could be practicing with my bow.

House Bunny...?

Fri, 06 Feb 2009 23:47:42 GMT

So, we're not getting a dog.
We still want an indoor pet, but until we no longer have outdoor dogs, it really isn't practical to have another dog, dig?

In lieu of a dog, we have decided that we will instead get a 'house bunny'. Har har.
That's what we have been referring to our future pet as. Not just because it's funny, but also because I have decided we are going to name the bunny Hef, in accordance with my mad Hugh and Playboy obsession.

Also, I've been playing Super Princess Peach for the DS like crazy, and I think I'm finally getting somewhere with it.

Woah.

Fri, 06 Feb 2009 16:11:34 GMT

Lux Interior died.

Dammit.

You could 'Get In My Pants' anytime.

Random images

Sat, 31 Jan 2009 02:29:31 GMT

Camera phone pics...

Meeeeeeeee!

My engagement ring

Princess, my mom's dog

My target, first time with a gun, ever

Me, at work with Ed

Alone...alone...alone

Sat, 31 Jan 2009 01:05:45 GMT

Ed's away on a job, and while I appreciate that he is on a service job and therefore getting more pay and more hours, I miss him terribly and he only left yesterday. He figures on this being a 4-5 day job, which means he'll be back maybe Monday or Tuesday, or even as late as Wednesday.
I know that this is not only necessary because we need the money to help pay for our wedding, but also because it's his job and he has to do what he has to do, but I'm still bummed.

I am deeply conflicted about this.

And I really miss him.

Wedding website

Mon, 19 Jan 2009 17:16:43 GMT

http://www.mywedding.com/edlovesjess/index.html

I've been trying to construct a wedding website for my guests and wedding party to use and keep updated, and also as a kind of cool memento for Ed and I.

If you have a chance, check it out and give me some feedback... I really want to make it as user friendly and interesting as possible.

Wedding tales and pony tails...

Fri, 09 Jan 2009 14:26:24 GMT

Gah... more and more wedding crapola... this is my dress, an Oleg Cassini thing ---> www.davidsbridal.com/bridal_gowns_detail.jsp

I'm making us a wedding website right now, and we're trying to get everything nailed down. So far we've definitely got our church, and we're thisclose to signing the contract for our hall, which is really nice, and I can totally picture us taking our first spin around the dance floor as husband and wife there. :)

So anyway, lots of stuff is either already done or close to it, which will be nice when it gets closer to our date and things are getting crazier. Especially since we changed our date. To get our church, we had to bump everything up a week. So now it's September 5th. I hate to admit it, but I'm getting really excited. I think it's finally sinking in... I'm going to be a bride!

So aside from all this wedding stuff...
The holidays were great. We gave each other some really great presents, and he especially did really awesome... he knew I was dying for the ring, and then he surprised me with the earrings. Needless to say, I LOVE them!

I've been wearing them pretty much nonstop since Christmas. And I actually get a lot of complements on them. I never knew so many other people liked Hello Kitty.
But anyway...

Since I don't have a job, and am not getting one until next month, I have lots of time to clean our house and cook. I always thought this 50s housewife stuff was crapola, but I find myself actually liking it more and more. We get up at the same time every day and then I make coffee and make his lunch while he showers and then we have coffee together before he leaves for work. It's nice. Really nice.

Also, it's been really nice getting to know his family more. I really feel accepted, like I fit in well. I was pretty nervous about it, but the more time I spend with them, the more I feel like I'm fitting in. And I think his brother's wife and I could get to be really good friends. She's probably the nicest, sweetest person I've ever met in my life. It'll be good to have some close female friends the closer it gets to our wedding date, since my best friend and mom both live a little ways away.

But anyway, that's about it for now. All I seem to think and talk about lately is wedding stuff, and I'm sure that cannot be all that interesting for everyone. Sorry!

Stolen from various people on my friends list...yay!

Thu, 08 Jan 2009 15:56:25 GMT

2008

:: What did you do in 2008 that you'd never done before?
Got engaged!

:: Did you keep your new year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I did not make any

:: Did anyone close to you give birth?
Not anyone close to me, no

:: Did anyone close to you die?
Yes

:: What countries did you visit?
Good ol' America

:: What would you like to have in 2009 that you lacked in 2008?
A husband! ;)

:: What dates from 2008 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
November 15... day we got engaged

:: What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Meeting my fiance and successfully maintaining our relationship

:: What was your biggest failure?
I would have liked to have graduated with a little higher GPA

:: Did you suffer illness or injury?
I had surgery, but am completely recovered thankfully

:: What was the best thing you bought?
My wedding dress

:: Whose behaviour merited celebration?
My fiance, Ed... he has been so fantastically supportive through everything

:: Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed?
Umm, nobody's really

:: Where did most of your money go?
Wedding things, food, rent

:: What did you get really, really, really excited about?
My impending wedding

:: What song will always remind you of 2008?
Sexy Can I... lol, it was played a lot during our awesome summer together

:: Compared to this time last year, are you:
// happier or sadder? Happier, definitely
// thinner or fatter? About the same, maybe a little thinner?
// richer or poorer? Maybe a little richer, but probably close to the same, haha

:: What do you wish you'd done more of?
Studying

:: What do you wish you'd done less of?
Not sure

:: How will you be spending Christmas?
With my fiance's family

:: Did you fall in love in 2008?
Yes...finally

:: How many one-night stands?
None of your business, darlings

:: What was your favourite TV programme?
Lost

:: Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
I don't hate anyone, honestly

:: What was the best book you read?
We Were the Mulvaneys... it was really good

:: What was your greatest musical discovery?
Hank III

:: What did you want and get?
I wanted to let go of things, and I have

:: What did you want and not get?
I wanted a better car, lol

:: What was your favourite film of this year?
Sex and the City or Juno

:: What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
Went out to dinner with my fiance and mom, and then he took me to see a Christmas light thing... and I turned 25

:: What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Nothing, I'm happy

:: How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2008?
Stacy and Clinton inspired while still retaining my personality

:: What kept you sane?
Ed, Destiny, and my family and other friends

:: Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
I did have a little thing for Chris Noth, but to be honest ever since Ed, I've not been much interested

:: What political issue stirred you the most?
There's many, but I'll go with mercury in the vaccines

:: Who did you miss?
Frank

:: Who was the best new person you met?
Ed! :)

:: Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2008:
It's a good thing to just let go of stuff and be happy

2009

1. Will you be looking for a new job?
Yes, I'm getting a job in Feb... Ed told me I should take January off, lol

2. Will you be looking for a relationship?
Only with my new husband

3. Will you be looking for sex?
We have enough of it, I don't need to go looking for it, haha

4. What will you do different in '09?
Cooking more at home, making a home for us

5. New Year's Resolution?
Have a gorgeous wedding!

6. What will you not be doing in '09?
Going to school, unless it's for my job

7. Any trips planned?
A couple small roadtrips, but the only big trip is our honeymoon

8. Wedding plans?
September 5...!!!

9. Major thing on your calendar?
My wedding!!! lol

10. What can’t you wait for?
Marriage, starting a family, etc

11. What would you like to see happen different?
I would like to be less quick to flip the bitch switch

12. What about yourself will you be changing?
Taking better care of my health

13. What happened in ‘08 that you didn’t think would ever happen?
i had never planned on meeting someone special, much less getting engaged to them and moving in together

14. Will you be nicer to the people you care about?
Yes

15. Will you dress differently in '09 than you did in '08?
I will probably kick the professionalism up a notch

16. Will you start or quit drinking?
I'll only quit if I get pregnant

17. Will you better your relationship with your family?
It's already good, but maybe it'll get even better

18. Will you do Volunteer work?
I'd like to

19. Will you be nice to people you don't know?
I usually am anyway

20. Do you expect '09 to be a good year for you?
I do indeed

21. How much did you change from this time last year til now?
I've matured here and there, but I'm still basically the same

22. Do you plan on having a child?
We might try after our wedding

23. Will you still be friends with the same people you are friends with now?
Yes, but I'm sure I'll become better friends with my new ones, too

24. Major lifestyle changes?
I got engaged, and I'm living with a significant other for the first time

25. Will you be moving?
No, I just did that

26. What will you make sure doesn’t happen in 09 that happened in 08?
I am not going to have another operation...lol, I've had enough of the hospital

27. What are your New Years Eve plans?
We hung out at home and spent it in bed watching tv

28. Will you have someone to kiss at midnight?
I did, yes

...
Wow, that was intensive

BusyBusyBusy...

Fri, 28 Nov 2008 22:13:49 GMT

We have cohabitation!

Seriously, last week (Monday night, really), I got home to my empty home-on-the-hill and it was all snowy and just really depressing, and I called my fiance, and he was all like 'Come stay with me.', and that night we talked about how he wanted me to just move in from day one, and how I'm sick of missing him and waiting for the weekend to come like some kind of mini-vacation, and we decided that instead ofthis just being a visit, I would move in. So, here I am, typing this from our living room.

So now I live in Pennsylvania again!

Thanksgiving was good, too.
My fiance is big into hunting, and yesterday he let me shoot his mom's rifle and one of his. My first time ever even touching a gun, and I shot the fucking bullseye dead center my first try. Lol, everyone says I'm a natural, and surprisingly, I loved it!
We went to his grandparents' place (mom's side) for lunch, and then had dinner with his father's side at his aunt's place (parents are divorced). It was pretty nice. I like his family and we get along well, which is a relief. His older brother's wife offered to help me with the wedding stuff, and I'm planning on asking his mom, too. Things should be cool.
I'm starting to get excited, as we get more stuff ready and planned.

We spent Friday until Wednesday with my mom in Philly, and since she's doing our flowers for us, we went flower shopping, and we bought all of our flowers, including everything for my bouquet!
It's going to be so beautiful, it makes me want to put on my dress right now...lol!

And now I have SO much stuff to do for school, but there is huge comfort in knowing that once it's over, I'm DONE. For good, and there will be that much more time to spend with my fiance.
But putting together this project and my portfolio is going to be a pain. Ugh.

I'm engaged!!!

Mon, 17 Nov 2008 13:32:07 GMT

And we set a tentative wedding date: September 12th.

For the record, I couldn't be happier. And my ring is gorgeous! ;)

I'm hungry. lol.

Mon, 03 Nov 2008 18:22:50 GMT

So, Zach and Miri Make A Porno... really funny. We had a good time, went to dinner, then to see the movie, then came home and had some lovely cuddle time in bed. Best Halloween ever, hands down, and I didn't even do anything Halloween related.

This whole weekend has been good. There were a lot of little moments where we had some conflict, but not enough to be a big deal. More or less it was us learning how we need to not take everything so seriously, and kind of just chill. I know though, that we are definitely going to make it. Everything, no matter how much it got blown out of proportion, was resolved with a minimum of stress.

Saturday night was good. We went to the mall, and I went shopping, and then we went out to the club and had some beers and did a little dancing, which was really nice.
Sunday night was nice, but man, is it hard to leave him and go back to my house. I love being at his house, and just knowing that even if he's not there, he's still all around me. It's heaven... lol.

I'm supposed to get my ring soon, too. He already knows how he's going to do it, too. I am SO excited. :)

Gah, we were so full of the sappy crapola this weekend.
It. Was. Awesome.

More homemade goodness

Wed, 29 Oct 2008 16:27:19 GMT

So, we're definitely going to see Zach and Miri Make A Porno.
We aren't going trick or treating. (No big deal, actually, I'd rather just hang out with him and a bag of candy that we buy.)
We might hang out with his mom, like go to dinner with her or something. (My future MIL, lol. Thank god we like each other.)

I might go see my mom for the first part of Thanksgiving break. Then we'll spend the actual holiday with his family.
I can't wait.

I'm at school now, teaching fourth grade, but they're painting, so I don't have to be doing direct instruction right now. I like these kids, they're pretty good.

Actually, this whole student teachng experience hasn't been bad. I'm still having the hardest time with the eighth graders, but it's still been okay. I can't believe that it's half over already! And then I'll be through with Fairmont State forever.
whee!

Driving to school today was hell, though. Preston County is far from ideal for driving when there's snow on the ground, especially in Terra Alta.

This weekend...

Wed, 29 Oct 2008 01:09:17 GMT

I want to go see Zach and Miri Make A Porno!

And I'm dressing up as a hobbit for Halloween. :)

Not sure if I'm going trick or treating or not, though. I kind of want to, just to get dressed up and go out.

I would also would like to get my official proposal, too. (I want the ring.)

Blather...

Mon, 27 Oct 2008 12:36:43 GMT

As much as I'm enjoying even being unofficially engaged, I cannot WAIT to make it official. I know that he wants to make it special though, and I think in the long run, I'm going to be way more thankful that he wants to do it up right instead of just handing it over. It'll make a great memory for us to share later.

We actually went and picked up the ring this Saturday. We were at the mall when his boss proceeded to ruin our weekend. Lol.
Actually, I can see that it's not all his fault (the boss). But things are way hectic and my darling FH is ready to rip his hair out. He had to get up super early Sunday morning to leave for what was supposed to just be a short job, and it turned into an all day thing where he didn't get home until after 8. I was at his house all day, waiting. I'm not mad though, especially not at him. I know he would much rather have stayed with me, and that's just his job, and it's busy season, and sometimes shit just happens. I know all of that. This is the man I love, and if his job comes with him, so be it. It's well worth the occasional disruption. Besides, I know it's not always like this. We had all spring and summer where he basically never was off on a service job that lasted more than a couple days. And generally, they don't last more than a week or two anyway, that Maine job where he was gone for two months was highly unusual.
However, he's brought up leaving his job and taking a union position, even though it would mean an initial pay cut. And I can't say I would be all that opposed to it. Sue me, I'm selfish and I want to know my husband is going to be with me every night. Plus, we want to start a family fairly soon after we get married, and that's going to be rough if he's got to be gone a lot. And the benefits a union job would provide would definitely be great. But really, whatever happens, we'll be fine. we love each other, and that's what counts. But let me tell you, this whole only seeing each other on the weekends thing SUCKS with a capital S. I have never envied other couples much, as I am more than satisfied in my own relationship, but I find myself becoming more and more jealous of people that get to see each other as often or nearly as often as they would like. I cannot wait until we move in together in December. Because even though he was gone yesterday, it was inifinitely more bearable being in his house than it is being apart from him in mine. I feel so isolated and lonely there. The only connection I have to the outside world besides my phone is the internet, and I'm not much of an internet rat, so it doesn't keep me amused all that long.
He has cable and is going to get the internet for me so I can use it on weekends if I need to at his house.

Ugh, sorry for exhausting the topic of my loneliness and separation anxiety yet again. I promise that things will be decidedly more cheerful in a month or so. Although once I move in, I doubt there'll be much internetting time, lol.

Gah, I want the ring!!! But I am doing so well with not bringing it up. I don't want to nag or push, I just want him to decide on his own and go for it.
But I hope it's soon. (And suspect it will be.)

It's shaping up to be a very consumer Christmas...

Fri, 24 Oct 2008 04:29:43 GMT

I'm already getting asked what I want for Christmas... oy.
I've tried to come up with a list of stuff that isn't ridiculously expensive or hard to locate.

Grr, why does this have to happen? Christmas isn't supposed to be about this type of thing, but when I was in the mall, I even found myself getting into the whole "Ooh, i want this!" thing. And that makes me feel bad, because I try not to focus on that too terribly much.
I think that the main focus of the holidays, except for littler kids, should really be family and friends, not what you can get from them.

But, since I've been asked to think of some things, I suppose I could. And in keeping with last year's newly begun tradition, I'm going to start keeping a list on my Livejournal. This is basically to help me remember what I kind of like, because I guarantee that by the time I have to give a concrete list, I'll have forgotten most of these, lol.

So... here goes.

Victoria's Secret Heidi Klum Collection lipstick and eyeshadow
Hell's Kitchen game for the Nintendo DS
Hank III Angel of Sin ringer t-shirt
Victoria's Secret gift card
Wedding stuff!!! (lol, it never ends)

Honestly, I really don't have much that I want. I'm with the best man on earth, he's got my engagement ring, and I have great friends and family. What else is there?

sigh.

Mon, 20 Oct 2008 21:11:21 GMT

I am lonely.
I know that I only have the week to get through until I see him again, but it gets so lonely here. I shouldn't complain, and I'm an adult, I shouldn't be this much of a baby. But I hate feeling like this. The hours stretch out, and I feel so lethargic and lazy, even though I have plenty of stuff to do. I find things to leave the house for, however trivial they are, just to be able to be out around other people. Even student teaching, which really is going okay, has turned into this huge roadblock between me and being happy, because when I'm done, I can move in with Ed, which is what I really want to do.
I just keep telling myself that it'll be okay, and that it's not too much longer (just barely two months, really, and that is including my week long vacation for Thanksgiving) and I get three Tuesdays off in a row, which is a nice little break where I could possibly sneak up to his place for the night.

I just want this all to end! And I feel so bad for complaining, but sometimes it just seems like nobody really understands.

33 more days to go... all I can say is thank god for national holidays, election day, and ST Training days. Now if I can just come up with enough ways to keep these kids busy, it'll be good.
Since I've had fewer numbers of classes with a wider range of grade levels, I've had to come up with more stuff than I thought, and it's kind of getting to be hard, thinking up things for them to do that they won't find totally stupid or too easy.

I wish someone would call me.